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[23 Feb 2007|11:11am] |
So what happened for the past year +?
Here's the gist of it:
Got kicked out of our Beach House
Moved in with Best Friend and Coworkers (4 total people) into a big house in Mira Mesa that had a huge Hot Tub.
Was a terrible situation and had a huge falling out with almost all roomates and best friend.
Didn't renew our Lease and ended up moving into a nice Apartment up the street with a different coworker and very close friend. Had to give Marley to my best friend.
FINALLY got "myself" back again and felt absolutely wonderful, became very enveloped moreso into my spirituality.
Met an amaaaaaaaaaaazing, intelligent, mature and VERY spiritual girl (Jenica) through my roomates Wife (her best friend).
She moved away but we kept contact.
I visited her in Prescott, AZ on July 16th, 2006.
We had the most magical journey together and by July 17th, we realized we were completely in love despite knowing each other approx 8 months and only hung out 3 total times. I knew I was going to be with her forever by the first kiss.
I ran off to AZ and I am now living with my Love and we are both starting our own Businesses (I am going into IT work for myself).
So, in the end (or beginning?), I have found everything I am have been looking for since I even started this Journal. I have found my Soulmate whom I know I have loved in another Life before this. I have found my Spirituality and continue to let it guide my path. I have found Peace, I have found God, I have found Light, I have found Purpose, I have found Life and I have found them all in Her, just as I knew I would and waited for.
Its been an amazing ride. Thank you all for reading this Journal this far and being with me all along. I wish you all the most Light and Love one can stand on a daily basis!
- Lars
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| Does anybody read this anymore? |
[22 Feb 2007|05:19pm] |
I just figured out that my LJ STILL works.
I'll update if I get comments. LOTS changed.
Otherwise, I'll vanish like a thief in the night. Byebye.
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[19 Jul 2005|12:18am] |
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No more brace face.
Where's my popcorn!?
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[10 Jul 2005|01:52am] |
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Just got back from Vegas tonight.
BAD ASS.
We stopped on the way and bought a ton of beer. Good beer. Arrogant Bastard and other assortments of Stone Breweries beer. http://www.stonebrew.com/
Got to Vegas late, like 8pm. We quickly checked in (Riveria) and got the beer on ice. 1/2 hour later, already down a few. My homey cruises over and we continue the drinking and smoking before hitting the strip.
The trip ALMOST sucked because Daniel (my roomate) forgot his ID at home (the luck!). We decided it was time to find a titty bar so we hit the strip. First one was a bit too expensive for our tastes but we ended up at one called Treasures. They naturally, didn't let Daniel in and he assured us he would be cool and said for us to go in...it was my boy's Bachlor Party, after all.
We went in and about 1/2 hour later Daniel rolls in. He managed to talk the gaurd into letting him in...amazing. Anyways, we drank a lot more, saw lots of titties, I met a very nice lady who gave me a very nice dance. I told her "I'm out of cash" but she said "its cool, I'm off right now anyways." She stuck around for a few hours after...even let me get friendly. She invited me out to a Club but I knew that wasn't happening that night.
We got back to the Hotel @ sunrise, slept for 4 hours, woke up, went to the Chapel to watch David (the bachlor) tie the knot. Left, hauled ass home, now posting.
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[05 Jul 2005|05:41pm] |
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What a wonderful 4th of July weekend. Good times all around, most notably last night. Wasn't expecting much of a turnout but we had a small BBQ. Only a few people showed for the BBQ but a lot more later in the night. Around 9pm we walked down to the beach (a mere 4 blocks) and watched the numerous Fireworks displays from all around San Diego! The crazy part is Red Tide was going on so all the waves GLOWED GREEN when they crashed because of some phospherent plankton in the water. So between the explosions in the sky reflecting off the glowing green water against a perfectly clear night sky...ahhh....perfection. Also met a cute little number whom I seemed to be connecting with nice but ended up she had a boyfriend...ahhh, frustration. Either way, beautiful day/night.
Short work week till we repeat this weekend. My buddy is having his Bachlor party but its going to be tough to make it. All depends on the $$. Money talks and I'm speechless lately.
Speaking of work, its really crazy the position I worked myself into there. I somehow became a central hub of information and a "go to" guy. I've never been the go to guy. Its an odd feeling of responsibility and pride. I try my hardest to remain humble but I also see nothing wrong with knowing when you can toot your own horn and when you can't. I'm proud of what I've accomplished but that doesn't mean I've lost sight of the fact that I a) came from nothing and b) have a LONG way to go. But nothing wrong with enjoying the progress of the ride. :)
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[27 Jun 2005|11:16pm] |
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I'm starting to write music so much more. This is such a mind-fuck (pardon my french).
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[26 Jun 2005|04:05pm] |
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What a great day today.
Woke @ 11:30am. Walked my pooch to the beach.
Beautiful blue day, clearest its been in weeks.
Gonna wash the dog later. Clean up the house, the car too probably.
Sipping on some brews that my friend Amanda was nice enough to leave.
Last night was great, another gathering of 'the good people.'
Hope your days is going as nicely.
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[21 Jun 2005|01:39am] |
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'The fact that we live at the bottom of a deep gravity well, on the surface of a gas covered planet going around a nuclear fireball 90 million miles away and think this to be normal is obviously some indication of how skewed our perspective tends to be'. - Douglas Adams
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Went to a tiny get together @ fiesta island tonight. Good little bonfire, good times, drank a few. Came home with my roomy, drank a bit more, smoked, ate and now bed. I gotta be up in 5 1/2 hours. Night.
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[14 Jun 2005|10:32pm] |
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On this bridge, Lorca warns, "Life is not a dream. Beware. And beware. And beware." And so many think because Then happened, Now isn't. But didn't I mention the ongoing WOW is happening right now? We are all co-authors of this dancing exuberance where even our inabilities are having a roast. We are the authors of ourselves, co-authoring a gigantic Dostoevsky novel, starring clowns. This entire thing we're involved with called the world is an opportunity to exhibit how exciting alienation can be. Life is a matter of a miracle that is collected over time by moments, flabbergasted to be in each other's presence. The world is an exam to see if we can rise into direct experience. Our eyesight is here as a test to see if we can see beyond it. Matter is here as a test for our curiosity. Doubt is here as an exam for our vitality. Thomas Mann wrote that he would rather participate in life than write 100 stories. Giacometti was once run down by a car, and he recalled falling into a lucid faint, a sudden exhilaration as he realized that at last, something was happening to him. An assumption develops that you cannot understand life and live life simultaneously. I do not agree entirely. Which is to say, I do not exactly disagree. I would say that life understood is life lived. But, the paradox is, Bug Me, that I can learn to love and make love to the paradoxes that bug me, and on really romantic evenings of self I go salsa dancing with my confusion. And before you drift off, don't forget, which is to say, remember, because remembering is so much more a psychotic activity than forgetting. Lorca, in that same poem, said that the iguana will bite those who do not dream, and as one realizes that one is a dream figure in another person's dream, that is self awareness.
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[12 Jun 2005|02:28pm] |
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There are two kinds of sufferers in this world: those who suffer from a lack of life, and those who suffer from an overabundance of life. I've always found myself in the second category. When you come to think of it, almost all of human behavior and activity is not essentially any different from animal behavior. The most advanced technologies and craftsmanship bring us at best up to the super-chimpanzee level. Actually, the gap between say Plato or Nietzsche and the average human is greater than the gap between that chimpanzee and the average human. The realm of the real spirit, the true artist, the saint, the philosopher, is rarely achieved. Why so few? Why is world history and evolution not stories of progress but rather this endless and futile addition of zeroes. No greater values can develop. Hell, the Greeks 3,000 years ago were just as advanced as we are. So what are these barriers that keep people from reaching anywhere near their real potential? The answer to that can be found in another question, and that's this. Which is the most universal human characteristic? Fear or laziness?
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[12 Jun 2005|01:55pm] |
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Pretty chill weekend. Friday we had "a few" people over...ended up being like 30 people and going till 3:30am. I was pretty drunk but I never seem to go overboard anymore. I seem to naturally limit myself to a certain degree. I just don't see a point anymore in abusing it like everyone seems to do so carelessly. It was good times though, I really like the crowds we get. Everyone is respectful of the pad and our stuff and thats pretty rare. Some really good convos too.
Saturday I slept in, cleaned up slightly and chilled out till around 6, took a nap till 8, got up and rolled to our friend Jacks party. Good amount of beer and people (good female:male ratio too). Bounced out about 12am I think...
Today I (slept in) and cleaned...will do more cleaning later after I sit around and play video games/guitar/music for a while. Work week recycles again tomorrow morning.
Speaking of Work, I love my job. I hope I can keep it for as long as possible. I'm learning skills that will ensure my career path and I didn't even need to go to school (yet). I worked hard and finally got into a position where I am respected and looked up to. And it's not even a pride thing, I just like knowing I can be of use to people.
John Legend - Ordinary People is good shit. I'm out.
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[09 Jun 2005|10:27pm] |
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I should go to bed but got caught up with beer and roomates and god help me, guitar.
I stumbled upon all my old recordings of when I first started and its such a trip to hear how much I've progressed. Not to toot my own horn or anything but damn! DAMN! I mean, I knew all along, 'practice makes perfect' but when you look back it doesn't make it any less crazy. But thats what life is about it seems, one step leads to another (good song too).
Now that I'm learning Piano it's already helped me 100X in how to understand how good music comes together. Piano seems more "natural" at first but thats because its so laid out for you. Guitar is much more intimdating but also much more flexible (can't take a piano to a party).
I'd love to learn a brass instrument next, maybe a Sax or Trumpet. I feel like I can take on any instrument. They are no different than anything else I learn...once you know the basics to music itself the rest is just new technique.
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[09 Jun 2005|07:32pm] |
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So much good music lately...unbeleivable and life-changing albums...
Dredg - Catch Without Arms (beyond a doubt, album of the year for me...something so familiar about this album yet completely explores new territory...but this album hits home)
Foo Fighters - In Your Honor (pure balance of quality and quantity)
Doves - Lost Souls (a must for any mature Radiohead fans)
While Gorillaz - Demon Days isn't life changing (and quite frankly I hated it at first listen), its growing on me slowly...it has a lot of choice tracks and original style.
Today was chill. Worked, went home early, cooking some dinner right now...I knew when I moved out that I would be the cooker/cleaner. I can't help it, I like living a cush life and I don't mind working hard for a clean house and full belly. Right now I got chicken fingers, rice and veggies going. My roomates don't cook for shit but they can eat it like pros.
At least tomorrow is Friday. No plans this weekend but I'm sure a party will go off somewhere, if not here...I'd love to have people over on Saturday...so yeah, if you're in the area, drop on by. :D
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[05 Jun 2005|10:20pm] |
Had some people over last night. We recently added a Foosball table to the house. I never realized how much people love Foosball. I also never realized how much I love Foosball.
I washed my dog today. Dogs know so much more than we give them credit for. I have to tie him to the fence because otherwise, he runs. But the funny part is that it's the same leash I use to walk him with. So initially, when I grab the said leash, he's excited and happy, bouncing around the house (which isn't really a bounce but a mild and lethargic nudge in either directions) with glee. I walk him outside and he already knows something is odd...why the backyard? Then he sees me attach the leash to the chainlink fence and fear strikes his heart. He bolts inside knowing the fate which waits at the end of that black nylon rope of Death. I chase him inside, laughing as he skates across the hardwood floor. He almost hits the door, steers away to avoid it and right into my grasp. He haaaaaaates it but he's always super happy once he's done.
K, night.
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[05 Jun 2005|04:57pm] |
Decided I might post in this a bit more so I chose to update the looks a bit. Speaking of which, here are some latest shots of my room, my pooch (he's tired and bitter, just had a bath), my equipment and my new bong Jackie Chan.
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[02 May 2005|11:59pm] |
All quiet on the front here. I started my 9 day paid vacation so I'm fucking content as shit. Got plenty of beer, bowls, buds and bitches. :D
Life is fucking grand.
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[24 Apr 2005|02:47am] |
It starts with just a little glance now
Right away you're thinkin' 'bout romance now
You know you ought to take it slower
But you just can't wait to get to know her
A brand new love affair is such a beautiful thing
But if you're not careful think about the pain it can bring
It makes you feel so bad
It makes your heart feel sad
It makes your days go wrong
It makes your nights so long
You've got to keep in mind love is here today
And it's gone tomorrow
It's here and gone so fastRight now you think that she's perfection
This time is really an exception
Well you know I hate to be a downer
But I'm the guy she left before you found her</b>
Well I'm not saying you won't have a good love with her
But I keep on remembering things like they were
She made me feel so bad
She made my heart feel sad
She made my days go wrong
And made my nights so long
You've got to keep in mind love is here today
And it's gone tomorrow
It's here and gone so fast
Keep in mind love is here today
And it's gone tomorrow
It's here and gone so fast
Love is here today
And it's gone tomorrow
It's here and gone so fast - Beach Boys
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So we had a nice party last night @ the pad. I notice a cutie that entered the pad. We exchange frequent glances. This girl approaches me and asks me for directions to my house for her friend who was still to arrive. We talked more...and more. She asked me to call her, I complied, naturally.
I called her today and left a voicemail to see if she wanted to meet up later. She called back quickly and we set up a dinner date.
We ate some sushi and things went great. She's similiar to me...very laid back, casual, down to earth etc.. I just find it so funny how we can so quickly forget the potential negatives associated with meeting someone new. It's hard to not get hopes up and its hard to at the same time. I realize I could be hurt as quickly as I have before, but I also know it could work out better than it did.
The main point of the post is to celebrate the intial stages of any developing interest....the looks, the touch + go of getting to know someone new in an intimate manner, the absolute stillness of your soul when you realize someone shares and enjoys a common belief/interest with you.
And at the same time, I sinking feeling of reality always nags at the tail end of my peace. But I find it useful. Nothing wrong with realizing that shit can go wrong. But Brian Wilson knew what was up...he saw the true bliss of a new developing relationship and recognized the yin/yang of our bittersweet lifestyle of love.
So to bring it back home; how do you guys handle someone you're really interested in?
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[19 Apr 2005|02:55pm] |
OMFG.
What is sitting in my room right now.
Ohhhhh, she is so booty-fulllllll....to meeeeeeeeeee.....
Worth every penny.
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